So there is this one guy...

He's your average-looking kind of guy. Thin, tall, lanky and all gangly limbs. He has no fabulous-looking  Korean hairstyle or something. He's not stylish too, his clothes are plain, his shoes are plain, his bags are plain, and it seems to me that he only has this one jacket to wear anywhere, anytime. He doesn't wear perfume, he doesn't has a deep low voice, doesn't has a broad neck nor a broad shoulders, which are things that I paid attention to the most.

He is ordinary, and he should be nobody.
And yet he is continually impressed me and left me star-struck.

It is the fact that he is so goddamn smart that makes him so... attractive. He is religious, but he embraced his faith with logic and open mind. He has these sophisticated vocabulary that left me gaping in awe every time he open his mouth. He came from a small, uninteresting, in-the-middle-of-nowhere city, yet he knows so much, probably more than those big city mama boys I happened to know. He knows so much, yet he keeps his head down. He stayed low, he talk for the purpose of talking and not flaunting, he respects, and he listens. He is dependable, a born-to-lead kind of guy. He can be a little too straightforward at times, but it's just him being himself.

I've got to admit that it's good to have an object-attraction to spice up those boring days in class, but that's it. That's all he is, an object to entertain the day. Someone to look at and admire from afar. It is more like, a crush? A temporary school-girl crush. I haven't even try to 'kepo' on him, since I'm afraid that knowing him better will banish all those good images of him I built inside my head. Oh, and he is taken already. Not that I really mind, though. Again, I'm not interested on pursuing it.

He is ordinary, and he should be nobody.
And yet he is continually impressed me and left me star-struck.
He got me at 'ciyusmiapah'.

Smarty Smarty

Yang bikin jadi nggak cepet beres itu siapa sebenernya? 

Yang pergi di momen yang nggak tepat siapa?

Yang tiba-tiba minta hasil sementara selama ini nggak ada usaha itu siapa?

Selama ini semua kerja keras dan Anda di mana?

That's why I hate dealing with 'smart' people.

The amount of their knowledge equal the size of their ego

Such a pain in the ass.

Between You and I

Mengucap maaf lebih dulu bukan berarti lemah

Tidak lalu lantas kalah

Ini bukan bukan tentang siapa yang salah

Namun pikiran yang mampu menelaah

Dan hati yang lebih besarlah

Yang sanggup pertama kali melangkah

..because between the two of us, someone has to be the wiser one and make the first move

or we'll getting no fucking where

No, I'm not okay.

It's been such a long time since I post some decent stories here. I simply just don't have the time. And for the first time in my life, I got tired of writing, I loathe writing.


I started to questioning the reason I took this major. I should've know better than to see myself this high. This is exactly not suitable for me. Or perhaps it's the people that is not suitable.
I keep finding myself stuck with those that I'm not fond of like it's my ultimate bad luck or something. The assignments are hard and non-stop. There's too much events to paid attention to. I barely had the time for myself. Those who stayed far away barely had the time to catch up. And when they did, they talked about things that I don't give a damn. It was different, my life here and their life there, and so we won't find things to talk about with.

I left my heart with the memories, that I'm holding onto tightly since the present is so unacceptable. But memories are just memories. It'll fade away. It has began to fade away.

Everything didn't go as I planned. I'm wondering who to blame here. Faith?
Me?

Hello. Fuck You.

Weak and Whiny

Mean and Impatient.

Slow and Undependable.

Egoist and Emotional.

Spoiled and Ungrateful.

Weird and Sensitive.

We hate each other's guts. But you need me. Just like how I need you.

We are what we are now.

Frenemies.