Cleaning Up

So I've removed many posts here, leaving only thirty-something left for you to read. It turned out that I love this blog too much to actually shut it down. I felt like cheating though, removing all those old posts. But it's necessary. And it's a good change too. Now you didn't have to read all those silly, emo, and alay posts huh? :)

Random Thoughts

I've been thinking of shutting down this blog. Like, making it private or something.

I just found out that there's a 'whistle blower' that read these things I write here. It's not that I am ashamed of what I write, no. It's just that, these posts, these thoughts of mine, well let's just say that they are not something that the whistle blower & friends will agree with.

So yeah. You see, I hate unnecessary conflicts. My thoughts are unconventional, yes. And it sure will cause a mess when the whistle blower tell his friends about it. And to prevent that, I think it'll be best if I just shut down this blog.

I still don't know what will I do though. Either change my address, delete old posts, or simply shut this down and make it private. There will be a few changes, definitely. And I won't post anything until then.

Kembali

Mimpi adalah jalan untukku kembali padamu yang telah pergi
Dalam realita yang kurajut dari keping-keping asa, aku menemukanmu yang lama hilang
Tangan yang lama menggenggam hampa kini mampu merengkuhmu meski semu
Hati yang lama sepi kini hidup kembali meski dibatas durasi
Aku menemukanmu kembali meski dalam mimpi
Namun semua ini rapuh, simpul-simpul yang kujalin tidak bertahan abadi
Kadang mesti kuakhiri perjumpaan meski seluruh serat tubuhku masih rindu berpeluk
Maka ketika yang tertinggal hanya kenangan samar akan pertemuan sementara, aku lara luar biasa
Jadi kunanti ketika pekat menyergap mematikan rasa dan tak lagi terjaga
Di sana sekali lagi kutemukan jalan kembali padamu yang lama tak kujumpa
Sampai saat itu aku akan sabar menanti
Sampai nanti bertemu lagi
Dalam mimpi atau mati

(Untuk mimpi yang membawa harapan semu. Karena terbangun dan meraih dalam gelap untuk sesuatu yang tidak kembali, bukan hal yang bisa dinikmati)

A Birthday That Will Never Be

Happy 51st Birthday

I miss you more than anything

I wish I could still say that to you

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Random Talk

It's Sunday night, and Sunday nights always suck. I mean, it's the end of your weekend, tomorrow is Monday, and everyone hates Monday for the obvious reasons, so yeah Sunday nights suck.

Anyway.

I'm not going to write anything important in this post, just scrapes from my daily life so you can skip this if personal entry isn't your thing.

So I have this recent addiction to StumbleUpon. This app is just perfect! I can spend hours just browsing through their pages. I currently have 113 interests, and yes I know that's a lot but I just can't help it! There's just so many fascinating things you can find on the internet, and I just want to see it all, as much as possible.

My username is ollapalooza. You can follow me, or not. Because I don't really care cause it ain't twitter.

Another thing that I'm addicted to is Ellen Degeneres Show. Here in my country, the most popular talk show host is perhaps Oprah, because her show aired on one of our national television channel. Ellen Show is not available here, and it's understandable of course, with my country being somewhat conservative and (pretend to be) religious, while Ellen on the other side being openly lesbian celebrity and her open support on equality for same-sex couple. I won't talk about this issue here, because I have seriously long opinions about this matter, but I just wanna said that I do support LGBT. I'm not one of them, but I support equality for all human being regardless their sexual preferences. And I do think that people who think otherwise are hypocrite. But that beside the point.

The Ellen Show is amazing! Once you watch one video, you just can't stop watching for more. Ellen Degeneres is probably the funniest, kindest, most amazing woman in the world. Or in the entertainment industry. Yeah, whatever.

Anyway, she's really great. She's a great interviewer, she does stand-up monologues, she helps many schools in need, she has the greatest and funniest games ever, and she gives out the most amazing gifts to her audiences. Just go ahead and watch her on YouTube.

I'm also currently in love with Doodle God. It's a puzzle game for smart phones and computer. You play it by combining available elements in order to get new elements. For example, if you combine Earth and Fire you'll get Lava. When you put Human and Knowledge you get Book, and so on. There are many other games that similar to Doodle God, like Doodle Devil, Doodle Farm, Alchemy, and Inceptio, and they're all addicting! Well, but this is just me and my taste on, what my classmates said, 'mengasah otak' games.

My last addiction is, surprisingly enough, Big Bang. It all started when one of online journal that I follow wrote about Fantastic Baby MV. Now that my liking towards Kpop only limited to Super Junior and DBSK, I usually refuse to pay attention to any other groups. But with this recent condition about soon-to-be-held SS4 INA and how I can't watch it (Yes, I won't. Let's not talk about it. It huuuuuuurts), I think listening to other group might help me get over it. So I watched the MV, and I like it, and it stuck on my head for days, and then I started to watch some more. Variety shows, solo project, CF, documentary, the usual. And I enjoy it. Some of their songs are a bit too flashy for my liking, but aren't the boys fun to watch! I fell for GD instantly, but T.O.P is hilarious. That sneaking-part on Strong Heart? I literally rolling on the floor, laughing my ass off. Oh, and yesss he's unbelievably handsome too, damn it. And that voice is just so...

Oh, and GD & T.O.P did a song with Pixie Lott. Yes, the amazing Pixie Lott. For real. The song's called Dancing On My Own. I really like it. I love Pixie Lott, and for her collaborating with GD & T.O.P that's just plain amazing. And the boys' English is so good I'm amaze.

Someone already uploaded it here.

Dua Satu

Betapa mudahnya, sekita sekalian
Bersama sama menjadi bodoh aneh dan bersenang senang
Karena kita muda dan hanya bercanda

Betapa biasanya, seaku sekau sekalian
Pergi mendekap dan berbagi tangis
Lalu balik mencaci kata pada kata
Kemudian terbahak
Dan mendekap
Lalu menangis
Lalu mencaci
Kemudian terbahak
Karena kita muda dan tidak peduli

Semua ini semu
Kita rapuh dan kita tidak selalu satu
Tapi tak apa
Karena kita tak pernah ikrar ini kekal

Karena tidak kita bawa sisa sisa rasa
Dan tak kita cari janji janji masa
Kita hanya ada
Detik ini
Di sini

Kita adalah janji janji yang ingkar
Kita adalah lara yang disimpan sendiri
Kita adalah bisik bisik tanpa nyali
Kita adalah nyawa selama catur dan sapta
Tapi tak apa

Kita muda
Kita tertawa

Dan kita acuh pada dunia

Babbling : Social Media

Semua pasti tahu Instagram. Photo sharing application yang tadinya eksklusif untuk pengguna iOS ini sekarang udah bisa di download gratis di Android Market. Kabar-kabarnya sih banyak iPhone owner yang nggak suka. Kalo saya sih karena bukan iOS user ya seneng-seneng aja dapet Instagram, langsung berasa gaul beudzz gitu.

Instagram sebenernya mirip banget konsepnya sama Tumblr, tapi lebih simple, lebih user friendly, lebih populer, tapi lebih menyeramkan.

Instagram yang tadinya saya kira artsy community macam Tumblr ternyata lebih mirip Twitter dalam versi photo sharing. Fungsi utamanya sebagai tempat share foto kayaknya udah mulai berubah jadi sarana untuk kepo bagi sebagian orang.

Biarpun kepo itu seru, agak seram kadang ketika mendengar orang mulai menggosipi foto-foto di Instagram orang lain. Yang si A post foto boneka dibilang sok imut lah. Si B post foto tas-tas branded dibilang fotonya hasil search di Google lah. Si C post foto liburan di Jakarta dibilang norak lah. Si D post foto lagi berbikini dibilang nggak punya malu lah. Komentarnya adaaa aja, and it never stop to amuse and scare me at the same time. Yang tadinya mau ikut-ikutan post foto di Instagram jadi agak segan.

Beda sama Tumblr. On Tumblr, I'm free. I'm anonymous. There's so many people, and no one give a damn on who you are, what your real name is, where do you live, how pretty or how rich you are as long as you keep posting things that worth reblogging for. People will follow you because they like your posts, and not because you ask them too or because they want to peer into your life. On Tumblr, when someone follow you, it actually mean they're following you as in admire you, and not spying on you.

Yes I love Tumblr so very much. Tapi bukan berarti saya nggak pernah ngerasain nggak enaknya. Saya pernah post tulisan, isinya pendapat pribadi tentang satu accident di Kpop fandom.Tiga puluh menit setelahnya, inbox saya penuh dengan berbelas-belas hateful comments dari fans-fans si Kpop group ini. Semua bilang mereka nggak setuju sama post saya. Beberapa menyampaikan keberatannya dengan baik-baik, sopan, ditambah emote senyum. Tapi kebanyakan justru marah-marah heboh, saya dibilang stupid lah, idiot lah, nggak bisa mikir lah, nggak punya otak, super dumb lah.

Social media semakin ke sini makin canggih. Yang dulu cuma ada Friendster sekarang kita punya Skype. Yang dulu main Wordpress sekarang pindah ke Pinterest. Foursquare, Path, Omegle, Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, social media berkembang terus mengakomodir keinginan kita untuk berinteraksi. Ketika satu social media mati atau mulai sepi, akan muncul yang baru dengan kemampuan yang lebih mumpuni. And we will love every single one of them. Because social media fulfill one of our basic needs as human. Attention.

Yang jadi masalah adalah kadang kita nggak bisa ukur perhatian yang seperti apa yang bakal kita terima dari hal-hal pribadi yang kita share ke publik. Maksudnya post foto karena seneng bisa liburan ternyata malah dikomentari kampungan. Posting tulisan yang sebenarnya pendapat pribadi ujung-ujungnya malah di-bash. Sibuk check-in di Foursquare dibilang berlebihan. Nge-tweet curhat dibilang lebay. 

Akun-akun yang kita punya di Twitter, Blogspot, Facebook, dan seabrek social media lainnya tujuan utamanya kan memang untuk share news and our personal info. Lantas ketika hal-hal yang kita share ke publik itu justru mengundang komentar negatif, konflik-konflik nggak penting, dan perhatian yang nggak diinginkan, gimana? 

Berapa banyak yang orang lain perlu tahu tentang kita, atau sebaliknya?

Kenapa mereka perlu tahu, dan kenapa kita perlu tahu?

Social technologies created a world of always-on connection, endless social interactions, and over-sharing. Whether you're going to swim along the wave or just sit on the side and watch, it depends on you. Just remember to swim and to watch smartly.

“We have invented inspiring and enhancing technologies, yet we have allowed them to diminish us.” - Sherry Turkle