Okay. So the age seventeen finally feels real. The responsibilities, the life-changing decisions, the new ways of seeing things. Life had never been so fun yet... complicated.
Things change. People change. Some for good. Others, well, can't say so. Friends come and go, some people stays, the others aren't. Or perhaps they're still here, just not as close as they're before. A few years ago, if this kind of thing happened to me I would absolutely went nuts and throwing silent treatment for days, annoyed everyone. Good thing I didn't do it anymore. (Well, rarely do it. Ego is so hard to control after all..)
Age made me think. Having a temper tantrum at this age will be shameful and considered a childish behavior, right? So I try, hard, not to. I try to accept the fact that sometimes, even a lifelong best friends must go their own separate ways.
Take Junsu & Eunhyuk for example! When Junsu decided to leave SM for god-knows-why, Eunhyuk didn't follow his lead straight away just because they're BFF right? *DAMN I wish he DID! I miss HyukSu :'(
Even so, they're still each other's best friend, if their tweets and Hyuk constantly mentioned Junsu on KTR are the indications.
Sometimes, a lifelong best friends change too. Sometimes, they become a stranger and not the one you used to love and know like the back of your hand. Sometimes they act so differently, hang out with a different group of friend, look different, and do things you never thought they'll do.
Like Heechul and Hangeng. (Well, you know what I'm talking about! No need to explain the story again, for it's just makes me saaaaad)
Anyway,
So yes, things like that happened. And when it happened, it sucks. But we'll be alright. Somehow, after all those anger and feeling hurt, we'll come to our sense and finally, we will be happy for all the good things that happened to them, with or without us. You'll learn to cherish the memories you had with them before, because it's a damn good memories you have you don't want to destroy it with jealousy and hatred. It also help, because eventually, we will find someone new.
These new others will come, and you will have to start over. The awkward moments, the formality and the bullshit, building trust and chemistry, and then you will start sharing little secrets and stories of our life. Soon, we will feel comfortable around each other and hang out more. You might hate a few things about them, you can't help but comparing how different they are with your previous friends. But then you remember how happy you are, how many good things you find, how much you learn and see, and you will realize that it is alright. They are no longer strangers. They are friends, and you are happy.
You're alright. All is well.
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